Blackout 2005

[thirteenrocks]

I was, as most of us were, completely LOST when LJ blacked out over the weekend. There was no where to vent my feelings, to check on others, and well to just sit back and relax at.

On top of that, it makes me want to finish printing out the scattered remains of the journal-in paper form. For starters, a backup copy if yet another Tsunami comes and whipes these electronic words away, and least there is a paper copy. That. And. If something would happen, and I cease to be in the physical form anylonger, my recorded journy will be able to be read, by those who would like to read it.

I worked this weekend, and have sunday night off (thank you!). I've noticed that the little pissy things have been bothering me alot. Compounded that I have been charge again. I hate being in charge. I hate trying to triage all these problems the new nurses have, that arn't really problems at all, they are just stupid enough not to know the difference. I hate trying to solve Jeans problems and help her out, and let her whine because she has charting to do. I feel everything is my problem, when I am charge. It shouldn't be that way. If people, specially those without a license, would do there job, be a little more flexable, and not follow the guidlines to a sharp printer perfect T, maybe the world would be a better place. Guidelines were that- a guide. It isn't a prefect map to follow to the heavens. Society, really pisses me off to no extreme.

Did I mention how much I hate other people, and most people at that. It has gotten almost to the extreme of hitlers proposed idea, and although I am not looking for an utopia, I'd hope I'd encounter more people with culture, diversity, critical thinking, that wern't out for themselves. Maybe I'm being a bitch, or bitter, or anti-semetic (in a way). Maybe I need a long vacation.

I don't understand middle class americans, who live in this sheltered viewpoint of the world, of homemade cookies, beer bellys and factory type jobs, sitting around discussing the weather, the world, using words of "yah, and dat, and ya know...". Seriously is that proper english, and what exactly are we accomplishing here, when your view point is so narrow, one can't walk though it. You sit in your white trash house, your hair in your curlers, leading this sedimentry life, that the "good lord" is going to see you through it.

Fuck that shit.

These are the same S.o.B.'s who have a "support our troops" sticker on thier car. What is that doing? It is saying we need to support them? What if I was't for the war in the first place. The fact is, its not doing ANYTHING. If you are for the war, then go fight. If your against it, throw a protest. Putting a sticker on the ass of your car, is saying your going to do something, and then never do it.

Maybe is it because some people have tried to make me feel incompetient latley... and I just won't stand for that bullshit anymore.

Welcome back LJ

Comments

[boiontheverge.livejournal.com]

You said a mouthful sistah! I am soooooooo tired of seeing those sprawlmart factory produced ribbons on the ass of every suv and mini van. What the fuck does it mean to support our troops? It should say I support cheaper oil for my big ass guzzling house on wheels, because I really don't know or care why there are young men and women still over fighting a war that is based on lies with no foreseeable end in sight. I don't think that would fit on those ribbons. Keep ranting...it helps to maintain some semblance of sanity.

[caramaea.livejournal.com]

"What the fuck does it mean to support our troops? It should say I support cheaper oil for my big ass guzzling house on wheels"

Very well said!

[thirteenrocks.livejournal.com]

Thanks for reading! I sometimes, often get on a soapbox. Don't get me started on the signs at sprawlmart that say "Senior citizen parking" or Parking for expected mothers.

[caramaea.livejournal.com]

We loathe the things we'd most like to be able to conform to, at least I do. I guess that's why I hate people with lives that look storybook. Although I agree with you about the yellow ribbons. They are just another way for people to be in the "cool" club (at least for now).

[thirteenrocks.livejournal.com]

You make a valid point. "We loathe the things we'd most like to be able to conform to". If we want to be something, and can't, then the mechinisms of our defense, we hate it.

Maybe I want people to be more like me. No, that's not really it. Its more of people no answering lights, helping out, or just being lazy. People who can't see outside the box. It frustrates me to know end.

[caramaea.livejournal.com]

I dunno if I even believe in "outside the box," you know? We only know the set things that are put in front of us and the so many ways they can be arranged. Some people are more creative and helpful than others, but there is a finiteness to what we can do.

[thirteenrocks.livejournal.com]

True, and sometimes people are not educated or comfortable with looking outside the box either... looking outside the box, meaning seeing the larger picture, the end result...

[oldhalloween.livejournal.com]

Its been my opinion growing up working in retail that everyone should be required to wait on the public for a 24 hour period. You not only have to put up with every walk of life you see them at their worst...in pain. Pain and fear really bring out the ugly. Health care is soul draining and you do need to recharge that battery from time to time. Grounding and releasing the negative and filling back up with beauty and love. Spending a little time doing what truly moves you and fills you with awe will help immensely.

[thirteenrocks.livejournal.com]

Amazing! That is Exactly what I need to do, recharge the battery.