Mondays-and weekend warriors

I have been sleeping alot lately. I slept all thrusday away-most of friday, and most of sunday. It is a concern for me, and I am not sure how to get out of this rut I am in. I highly doubt that it is depression, but then why can't I motivate myself to get things done--maybe it's just me... not sure....

Had the most exciting and interesting weekend. A good friend of mine from H.S. got married.. to her lesbian partner. Although I am glad I went, it was kind of an episode of the twilight zone or a constant mirror. I havn't decided which. I had no idea what to expect at all, got to the church and was ELATED that her family-and extended family were there. Her parents have had a hard time dealing with her homosexuality, but over the years have accepted it. Kelly was very proactive, and at times have put her sexuality right in there face. She also had lack of respect for her parents. I don't know if I would of made the same decisions she did-however it worked out in the end, I suppose. There were alot of people outside the church, just talking-no one was in the chapel as of yet. I was talking to Kelly's Sister, who was dating a friend's brother from High school. That was kind of wierd.

The wedding itself was breathtaking. Out of all the weddings I have been to, this was the most beutiful ceremony. People were crying of joy in the pews. Just breathtaking. The sermon was wonderful. TO BE CONTINUED

Sleeping

I have been so tired as of late. I slept most of today away, and feel like going right back to bed. I am not sure why I am so tired... I sleep great, but have only wanted to sleep lately. I have a slight suspision it is the depression comming back. I am not sure if I should increase my zoloft, or decrease it. My lack of motivation lately, and with sleeping, I just wonder if something isn't going on...

Friday, especially, and then again on Saterday, I had somewhat the same dream. Friday's dream really spooked me out. It took a few phone calls, and Jaymi to come over to settle me down. The dream was in perfect color, perfect detail and surrounded my sister's death that was as if it was preplanned. I saw my name on the tombstone along with my brothers, and at the end of the dream, I flew.. over this red bridge, down to the sea, and it was like I had died as well.
On Saterday night or Sunday morning, I dreamed of Rosemary's death, and her burrial (allthough completely differn't in regards to her "real" one). It was very similar to the previous dream I had. I just don't know what it all means, if anything, and if it is hinting to what may be forecasting.