Tuesday Morning

As schedueled, I have a shrink apointment tomarow with Karla.

Because its been over a month off of the Zoloft, because of friends and self-concerns, it was warrented.

I don't know what my baseline "mood" is. I just don't. I do know when I am slipping down the downward spiral. Although comming back from Europe, it was assumed I was climbing up the lader to take the leap down the slide, I no longer feel that way.

I'm more conscience of my surroundings, of my feelings, of how I relate to others, and what I am saying. I'm more cautious to what comes out of my mouth. Its my "nature" to talk about a situation, to build a bridge, and get over it-weather that is writting or talking to someone. Just because I may bitch about a co-worker, does not meen I don't "like" or "respect them". Frankly, I strongly disagree with his or her descion or thought process. And, its a two-way street. Definately.

Worked in the studio today. I am very happy when I am working on scrapbooks, or misc stuff. And the great thing, I can leave the mess and shut the door. Moving the bedroom up to the loft was the MOST excellent idea. IT really was a smart move on my part. I have some pieces started, but nothing finished. I may post photos later today, if I get camera happy.

I'm planning on bringing up the entire JIM situation to Karla, for many reasons some pure couriousity, and others due to past relationship fuck-ups. Its warrented, and FUCK, its what is going on my life right now. That, should kill a good portion of our hour long session. She isn't cheap, but what the windows she has opened, ah so sweet the air I breathe. Luckily its covered by insurance.

Picked up a REAL louie Vatton bag at the Goodwill outlet on Friday for 2 bucks! It needed a small amount of TLC, and will be going with me up to the "north shore" with Jim this weekend. I'm excited, but curious to see how this all goes down. Very much going along for the ride. Very much. There are alot of questions, and "as ifs" that need to be answered... or unanswered. Pick your poision.

Its sunny and its raining

I can NOT fall alseep. I have been up since 10:00 p.m. LAST night.

My left leg is AGAIN causing me problems. Seriously cause of concern at this point in the game.

Its sunny outside, raining inside.

Heard from a co-worker, that the NEW FINAL Harry Potter comes out JULY 13th 2007. Anyone confirm this?

**edit** the New movie (4th enstallment) comes out. Its the movie!

Invasion of the homosexuals

The apache maul in Rochester, Mn will burn to the ground.

Smoldering for days. The smell with overpower the downtown with the stench of wet, molding clothing for weeks to come.

It will be a great loss to the community. No more Barns and Noble, no more Daytons/Marshal Fields, no more food court.

Although arson will be suspected, it will never come to a clear conclusion, how the blaze started, except that the "GAP" is where it started.

Ran to the maul to return a shirt I bought at the gap. Being a former Gap employee I quite understand the GAP, like any other trendy store-is a gay magnent. Most of the consumers of the Gap, Abercrombie, ect, are homo's.

Tonight, the two male workers are going to set aflame the clothes and start the fire. Granted, I can flame with the best of them, HOWEVER, these men will give me competition. Limp wrists, the talk, the walk, my gay dar BROKE. A million little pieces.

Seriously overabundance of gayness. I had to wear my rainjacket.

A fire is going to be brewing, and hense no rain.