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The parents are comming. Next wednesday. Knowing them, they will arrive at the crack of dawn.. I'm thinking 7:30 a.m.
Since I more than likely will have just crawled into bed, this will work out great. Just great.
I'm TOTALLY freaking out, hard core about the rents. Like to the point of nervous breakdown.
Why? I know why. All my life, I have wanted there acceptance. I want them to think that I can do things on my own, that I am independent. THat I can cook, clean, fix my own plumbing..and all I need from anyone is respect. My biggest fear is they are going to see my house, my decorating, my renovations as crap. That they are going to pull me down from the clouds and throw me with the sodamites. My greatest fear.
They are proud of me. I'm also the black sheep in the family, and well, sometimes I think I'm my own shrink.
And it frustrates me to NO end.
Since I more than likely will have just crawled into bed, this will work out great. Just great.
I'm TOTALLY freaking out, hard core about the rents. Like to the point of nervous breakdown.
Why? I know why. All my life, I have wanted there acceptance. I want them to think that I can do things on my own, that I am independent. THat I can cook, clean, fix my own plumbing..and all I need from anyone is respect. My biggest fear is they are going to see my house, my decorating, my renovations as crap. That they are going to pull me down from the clouds and throw me with the sodamites. My greatest fear.
They are proud of me. I'm also the black sheep in the family, and well, sometimes I think I'm my own shrink.
And it frustrates me to NO end.