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Tomarrow-Tomarrow is a new day. At 1400 I get my HIV results.
I have mixed feelings. I want to know, and then if I don't know then I don't have to do anything about it. Denial is a powerful thing. And I think back to all the men i have slept with, the orgies, the one night stands the gay.com hookups, and I feel slutty, and yet, it is a game of russian rulletee.. and I have to think that there is a reason to this, that there is a purprose under heaven, that there is fate and reasoning behind everything...so we wait.. and wait and see.. .I am to call Matt tomarrow at 1400 and get the results. The damage is done.
And what do you do. What do you do if it is postive. What do you do if it is negative. Do you still breathe? Do you continue on with life? do you cease to live? "I'm not dying of aids,I am living with aids, to the very end, I will be person living with aids"-Pedro Zamora...
I basically have a good chance at being -, with my last tests -, except I did have unprotected sex with 2 people whose HIV status is unknown to me.... and that concerns me to some extent. But better wait and see...
On another note, I got a letter from the MN Driving board, that said I have 3 tickets and One more and my license is susupended. O happy. I framed it and put in on the fridge.
HEard from Jamie Last night. poor kid....
I have mixed feelings. I want to know, and then if I don't know then I don't have to do anything about it. Denial is a powerful thing. And I think back to all the men i have slept with, the orgies, the one night stands the gay.com hookups, and I feel slutty, and yet, it is a game of russian rulletee.. and I have to think that there is a reason to this, that there is a purprose under heaven, that there is fate and reasoning behind everything...so we wait.. and wait and see.. .I am to call Matt tomarrow at 1400 and get the results. The damage is done.
And what do you do. What do you do if it is postive. What do you do if it is negative. Do you still breathe? Do you continue on with life? do you cease to live? "I'm not dying of aids,I am living with aids, to the very end, I will be person living with aids"-Pedro Zamora...
I basically have a good chance at being -, with my last tests -, except I did have unprotected sex with 2 people whose HIV status is unknown to me.... and that concerns me to some extent. But better wait and see...
On another note, I got a letter from the MN Driving board, that said I have 3 tickets and One more and my license is susupended. O happy. I framed it and put in on the fridge.
HEard from Jamie Last night. poor kid....