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14 February 2008 23:10Happy Birthday ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
mollyblack I hope you are feeling better
mollyblack I hope you are feeling better14 February 2008
Therapy this morning with Karla was phenom. The best decision I made, was to go back into therapy. I don't regret making that choice, at all.
Karla seldom probes into much of anything. Merly she listens, offers observations, and bills me. Today, she asked more probing questions, unearthing a pandora's box (if you will), that I am amazed I didn't bring up prior.
She flat out asked, if I felt as if I needed to "move on". I.e. relocate. Bold move on her part, and no, I'm not planning on running across the boarder like some starved mexican any time soon.
She was interested in Airport guy; Scott, who stated that going on the RSVP cruise past March would "change my life". more importantly, why I gave him this power, or this prophetic idolation. I came up with theories, nothing more, but there is some truth in the fact that I gave him this power... do I think I was wrong in doing so, hardly. I don't. She finds that I continue to go back to this moment, to be interesting....
I havn't told my folks yet, that I am going on another cruise. We talked about my family being important to me, and that I havn't truely came out to my parents, situations regarding the family unit. Why my parents will prob. not think highly of me going on the cruise. That sort of thing.
The Pandoras box, which I do validate as of why I never really "dove" into it with her, was the entire "Theatre Camp Experience". That, was a point of my life, not only a turning point, but one of great hardship-at least to me at the time.
Actually, I forgot about it. I havn't thought about that period in QUITE some time. It has been, funny enough, 13 years-this summer..if my math is working out. Wierd.
Karla seldom probes into much of anything. Merly she listens, offers observations, and bills me. Today, she asked more probing questions, unearthing a pandora's box (if you will), that I am amazed I didn't bring up prior.
She flat out asked, if I felt as if I needed to "move on". I.e. relocate. Bold move on her part, and no, I'm not planning on running across the boarder like some starved mexican any time soon.
She was interested in Airport guy; Scott, who stated that going on the RSVP cruise past March would "change my life". more importantly, why I gave him this power, or this prophetic idolation. I came up with theories, nothing more, but there is some truth in the fact that I gave him this power... do I think I was wrong in doing so, hardly. I don't. She finds that I continue to go back to this moment, to be interesting....
I havn't told my folks yet, that I am going on another cruise. We talked about my family being important to me, and that I havn't truely came out to my parents, situations regarding the family unit. Why my parents will prob. not think highly of me going on the cruise. That sort of thing.
The Pandoras box, which I do validate as of why I never really "dove" into it with her, was the entire "Theatre Camp Experience". That, was a point of my life, not only a turning point, but one of great hardship-at least to me at the time.
Actually, I forgot about it. I havn't thought about that period in QUITE some time. It has been, funny enough, 13 years-this summer..if my math is working out. Wierd.