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16 March 2006 01:52i'm drunk. get that out of the way first.
went to alchatraz today and had a hella good time. it was very intersting to me since it has been the first prison that i have been to, and just to be in a cell and to see what it was like was very interesting...and confining, but interesting non the less.
its wierd. I'm here in the time share with my english teacher from high school, her husband and there "adopted" son JOSH. Josh who is hella cute... but so not the point.
I'm really uncomfortable around straight men. its bothersome to me, and although we get along someofthe thoughts in my mind, which will stay there...bother me... and kind of dwel on gay male stereotypes. And I am not sure why.
schobe said the other day that she had an issue with pertencious men who theink they are all that and a bag of chips. she couldn't of been more on the money, because that is totally how I felt with the 2 guys on the plane from msp. I tried so hard to ditch themafter we landed but it was such a no go. it bothers me that I don't have pecs and am all that. That was a real issue when I had the case of the funk about a monthago... its so hard sometimes to be an individual and stand up for what you belive when society is pushing this image of masculinity down your throat forcefully...
and I mention that because frankly josh fits that image...but yet he is sodown to earth. schobe had mentioned something that he camefrom poor whitetrash and I am dying to talk to her more about that. Its almost if josh and brian get along and schobe and I get along... but the four of us can be quite devious at times as well....
but yes. I admit it fully that I feel uncomfortable around straight men. its out of my comfort zone and I really dont'know how to act or to respond... its difficult to converse in conversation with them, specially since I don't know shit about cars, or sports or whatever... but what I do enjoy is art. I picked up some bones on alchatraz as well as emperhermea gaylor today..which will make a great altered book on the san fran trip for them as a thank you....
but anyways, it was really nice out today a great sunny san francisco day,,,,
went to alchatraz today and had a hella good time. it was very intersting to me since it has been the first prison that i have been to, and just to be in a cell and to see what it was like was very interesting...and confining, but interesting non the less.
its wierd. I'm here in the time share with my english teacher from high school, her husband and there "adopted" son JOSH. Josh who is hella cute... but so not the point.
I'm really uncomfortable around straight men. its bothersome to me, and although we get along someofthe thoughts in my mind, which will stay there...bother me... and kind of dwel on gay male stereotypes. And I am not sure why.
schobe said the other day that she had an issue with pertencious men who theink they are all that and a bag of chips. she couldn't of been more on the money, because that is totally how I felt with the 2 guys on the plane from msp. I tried so hard to ditch themafter we landed but it was such a no go. it bothers me that I don't have pecs and am all that. That was a real issue when I had the case of the funk about a monthago... its so hard sometimes to be an individual and stand up for what you belive when society is pushing this image of masculinity down your throat forcefully...
and I mention that because frankly josh fits that image...but yet he is sodown to earth. schobe had mentioned something that he camefrom poor whitetrash and I am dying to talk to her more about that. Its almost if josh and brian get along and schobe and I get along... but the four of us can be quite devious at times as well....
but yes. I admit it fully that I feel uncomfortable around straight men. its out of my comfort zone and I really dont'know how to act or to respond... its difficult to converse in conversation with them, specially since I don't know shit about cars, or sports or whatever... but what I do enjoy is art. I picked up some bones on alchatraz as well as emperhermea gaylor today..which will make a great altered book on the san fran trip for them as a thank you....
but anyways, it was really nice out today a great sunny san francisco day,,,,