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There is no use in updating, when there is nothing positive or refreshing to describe.

Threw myself a pitty party this morning that really never developed. What threw me off was seeing this float nurse, a male come in, and his image, his protrayl, of himself-really was the icing on the cake. THe male masucline image has always been a trouble with me, and for once being the freak that I am, just wasn't kosher. And maybe the difficultiy is the amount of FAILURE I executed this weekend that I am not proud or ashamed of, just bothersome.....

And the only way I can figure out how to deal with the deamons is to write about it, and that isn't going to smoothly either.