going offline

Yes, I have the harry potter book, no I am not finished reading it.

I have NOT been home for over a week (at least not to spend quality time) and the mess is overwhelming. In fact borris was in need of food and water this a.m.

Kevin came over again this afternoon, and sent about 500 emails tonight. Lovely. Too bad I am too tired to give a shit at this point.

Because of what happenend in the found_objects forum and the LEAK of Harry Potter, I'm going off-line untill the book is read. Hopefully by Monday.

The slow death of a sailing ship

If LJ was more expensive than my shrink, I so wouldn't be typing right now, but atlass, LJ. My portable shrink.

Kevin came over the other night, saw him twice today, and he is back on his way over. He made a comment in the park today that if He feels I am pushing him away, he retailiates by wanting to spend more time with me.

He just left. If he is trying to piss me off, its working. If he is trying to sink a ship, its working.

I can't have a conversation with someone, who doesn't have any interests, or who I have to explain everything to.

When I have days off, I have an agenda in my head-how my day is going to commence. SOmtimes it works, sometimes there are last minute changes. Fine.

Throw in MANY unexpected visitors, or conversations that don't go anywhere, I'm going to get pissed, specially when the unexpected visitor is the same person.

How do you show respect to me, by saying that you respect tiime by myself, and yet come over all the time.

If you got issues, those are your ISSUES. I AM NOT OWNING THEM.

If you think I used you, fine. If you think you know me, FINE. IF you think I am the worst person on the earth, FINE.

I'm FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF THIS FUCKING BULLSHIT. I do like him...on a superficial level. However its hard to hang out withsomeone who doesn't interact, or have any interests (READ BORING). I have no TIME for that.... and that reflects in my non-verbal language.

ONE more fucking conversation, one more dive into his psyche, and he is NOT going to like what I have to say, It will be a one sided conversation, leading to your sorry fucking ass being kicked to the cement.

I suggest you get a fucking life. Learn to live alone, be apart and GET TO KNOW YOURSELF. Maybe see a shrink.

The ship has set sail. Its slowly sinking.