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Once I got home today, I threw up again, and crashed. Although I woke up a few times, I basically slept for about 16 hours. I forced myself to go to hy-vee for a sick kit: OJ, Juice, Halls drops, day quill, soup, a magazine, banana's, ect. and then crashed again. I finally made myself get up out of bed, and started to clean the apt. It got to be pretty bad, specially when there is just a small path cleared to get from one room to the other.
Each time I layed down I kept on having the "secrete garden soundtrack" in my head. Probably because it has been in my cd player for a few days.. no offense, but that shit gets anoying!!
Was thinking today, of people i know, and aquaintences. Many times in therapy, i have talked that i feel like i have to keep in contact with everyone, all the time. I am trying to be this big fish net, trying to keep in touch with everyone.. and I relised that it is not humanily possibly and that someone has to have just a small hand of friends they can rely on.. the others.. well they just become yet another face in the crowd.
My computer no longer supports gay.com. My computer is quite old, and runs on a few hamsters that i have to feed every once in awhile. I can't afford to upgrade, so this will have to last me, if not a few more years.. if technology ever slows the fuck down. However, this lack of gay.com has been a blessing. I am no longer doing any hook-ups, or should I say, alot less, and this is making me feel better about myself, and allows to focus on other things...
Marilyn, my nurse manger wasn't too big on me leaving... but chris has made the comment that Mayo is too speciailsed. THe more you stay, the more you become this robot.. and I know I don't want that...
Each time I layed down I kept on having the "secrete garden soundtrack" in my head. Probably because it has been in my cd player for a few days.. no offense, but that shit gets anoying!!
Was thinking today, of people i know, and aquaintences. Many times in therapy, i have talked that i feel like i have to keep in contact with everyone, all the time. I am trying to be this big fish net, trying to keep in touch with everyone.. and I relised that it is not humanily possibly and that someone has to have just a small hand of friends they can rely on.. the others.. well they just become yet another face in the crowd.
My computer no longer supports gay.com. My computer is quite old, and runs on a few hamsters that i have to feed every once in awhile. I can't afford to upgrade, so this will have to last me, if not a few more years.. if technology ever slows the fuck down. However, this lack of gay.com has been a blessing. I am no longer doing any hook-ups, or should I say, alot less, and this is making me feel better about myself, and allows to focus on other things...
Marilyn, my nurse manger wasn't too big on me leaving... but chris has made the comment that Mayo is too speciailsed. THe more you stay, the more you become this robot.. and I know I don't want that...