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Heard from Brian who said he was proud that I shut off my cell phone off this morning-which I have to admit, was a bright sunshine in my less than desired productive day. I was up till about 0600, wrote out bills, got some stuff together to sell on-line, and worked on my scrapbook-the end is drawing near...
Last night, I had a list of things I needed/wanted to get done. I'm a piller. I make piles and piles of stuff, and hten tackle each of the piles. Its my organization technique, which works for me. And I would of loved to have sat and had a decent conversation with Mr. Paris, and yet, I knew that I had to avoid the procrastination monster as long as I could tolerate it... that was, untill, of course, I decided to take a break and sit on gay.com.
I have two handels: Gingersnapp and joeboxer55902. Joe has a semi nude pic of myself, and is very sketchy to the personal information givin out. needless to say, he was very popular last night.. and of course everyone wants to "hook up". The winner mr JW, and I were going to "hook" up at 10:00 a.m. this morning-either he was going to call me or I was going to call him. It was left as that. The more I thought about it, and the more I thought about it, I decided that it wasn't a good decision to make. That I am better than than, and that I deserve some R E S P E C T. I am reminded of Harvey Firestien in Torch song trilogy "want to see my self-respect, here, here is my self respect" as he slams the door on his bisexual lover. It's a dog eat dog world out there
ALthough hook ups are fun, and enjoyable, I always feel guilty, and trampy aferwards, it is so meaningless, and I want more than that now..I want more than a pretty face and sitting down on it, and I think I deserve for once, a stable relationship... don't i?
and I really enjoy talking to Brain...
Last night, I had a list of things I needed/wanted to get done. I'm a piller. I make piles and piles of stuff, and hten tackle each of the piles. Its my organization technique, which works for me. And I would of loved to have sat and had a decent conversation with Mr. Paris, and yet, I knew that I had to avoid the procrastination monster as long as I could tolerate it... that was, untill, of course, I decided to take a break and sit on gay.com.
I have two handels: Gingersnapp and joeboxer55902. Joe has a semi nude pic of myself, and is very sketchy to the personal information givin out. needless to say, he was very popular last night.. and of course everyone wants to "hook up". The winner mr JW, and I were going to "hook" up at 10:00 a.m. this morning-either he was going to call me or I was going to call him. It was left as that. The more I thought about it, and the more I thought about it, I decided that it wasn't a good decision to make. That I am better than than, and that I deserve some R E S P E C T. I am reminded of Harvey Firestien in Torch song trilogy "want to see my self-respect, here, here is my self respect" as he slams the door on his bisexual lover. It's a dog eat dog world out there
ALthough hook ups are fun, and enjoyable, I always feel guilty, and trampy aferwards, it is so meaningless, and I want more than that now..I want more than a pretty face and sitting down on it, and I think I deserve for once, a stable relationship... don't i?
and I really enjoy talking to Brain...
