dear brian

dear brian: i am drunk. what esle is new. I am at the saloone in msp. which is airport fo5r msp. 3whatever, you know. it is k,ind of wierd tp nbe [retensious around everone, and your beutuiful, htat is what you are, you beuraoigiaf

Explanation...

For starters, I am hung over. No doubt about that. To compound the problem, I have a huge problem with insomnia lately. I get off of work, and get home, and can't manage to fall alsleep... I've tried many old "tricks" (etoh, zolft, j/o, ect), but nothing seems to help, and when I do sleep, it seems the quality of sleep is quite poor at that. I'm concerned, because this is a major change for me, and i am not sure why it is occuring...

I had a nice little run in with Dr. Nick on Friday morning concerning one of my pt's. I'll discuss that in the nursing_notes journal.

Running in a miss us of a pageant tonight in Wausau, WI. I have never been and don't know exactly what to expect. I'm nervous, and concerned about how well I do. so we shall see what happens. NOthing to loose, I suppose. I, don't know, I guess. I want to win, I need to win, but also I want to be able to perform well, and represent myself well. THat is most important.. to play the game, it's not a matter if I win or loose, but how i play the game.

I bounced my checking account last night. FUCK! I have never done that, and what is more concerning, is that it is a LONG way from payday again, which is worrysome. SO not sure what to do....exactly. "When the money is gone-cher"

THe other morning, I had quite the ordeal. I'm a huge fan of dance music, and wanted to do this remix at the pageant. HOWEVER, it is very long and I wanted to cut the beginning and cut the end of it, to shorten it up. I have a burner, and thought it would be possible. It took me over an hour on the phone to a sony representive to figure it out. well I manged to figure it out, and there was peace and joy in my world once again.

Last night, I, Jacob, Retro, Gosh, Aaron, and Jason all went out to minneapolis. Our first place was "Jet Set" a minnamilist bar, that was actually quite excellnet. Ran into "william" there-whom I knew from La Crosse. I was dressed to the nine and honestly felt "cute" for once. After some Maritini's, we headed to the Saloon-which was very well. I ran into Steve, and also Robert, and also blue shirt guy.... yet more on that later..