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1 March 2008
Don't get your panties in a bunch, I'm still on vacation. At a bar with internet access. I know!
The last night I worked, I took care of a very young co-worker. A male, who is straight, and who I find interesting. Interesting in the sense that he seems to be just slightly uncomfortable around me-
I know this, because I know him outside of work. I know him from volleyball, from parties, and from a bunch of DRAMA that arose, regarding the faithfullness he is to his wife.
And I had an idea before I got there that night that I would be assigned to him. An idea in the sense that they were going to assign him to a male nurse, and he could have his choice who it would be. Actually, he could have his choice out of anyone that was on that night...and it was...me.
Honestly, the confidentiality on this case was case closed. No one knew who exactly who he was, except a select group of people. Partly because of the rotating door on the unit.
But looking back, him and another patient- were the highlight of my shifts. It worked out, and things were taken care of. Smother than clockwork.
What I am getting at is this.... the couple, the guy with the back infection. The other patient that touched me... the guy who was a pain in the ass to everyone else except me, him, he said to go have a good time on the cruise.....
And honestly......... I did.
It is what it is. Everything is what it is. You need to take the good, with the bad. You need to just accept to what life gives you, and realize that you are ALIVE, and that is worth the good fight. That you, you have this opportunity to make lemonade out of lemons, that you have the opportunity to dance on a back of a boat with 40 gay men, in a rain storm with your shirt off, with the wind blowing in your hair, to "Its raining men". You have the opportunity to travel the world with a toothbrush, toothpaste, and the survival clothing for 3 months in Europe. You have the opportunity to bring a smile to someones world, even if it just for a moment. You have that choice. And the choice is yours.
It really hit me today. When I was riding my bike to see David. They say you start at the begining, and if you loose your way, you need to go back to the begining. But what is the begining? Is it when you were born? Is it when you graduated high school? Is it when you get married? Is it birth? Is it..what? we all have those begin-ings. And if you can't find it, it is best to retrace your steps. Just walk backwards, and you will find the beginging.
For me, I thought it was when I went to europe, when my parents didn't want me to go. Then I thought more deeper than that.... I took another back. I thought it was Kara, and yet that is an overlapping, but doesn't really count.
No, the beginging for me, was that first trip to Ft. Lauderdale in 2001. That was the begining for me.....
Definately.
But the point of all of this, the point is simply this: that I can run with the big dogs. I can rise to the occassion and overcome any hurdle that is put in my path.
And for once I found that out.
And that, that is so fucking powerful.
The last night I worked, I took care of a very young co-worker. A male, who is straight, and who I find interesting. Interesting in the sense that he seems to be just slightly uncomfortable around me-
I know this, because I know him outside of work. I know him from volleyball, from parties, and from a bunch of DRAMA that arose, regarding the faithfullness he is to his wife.
And I had an idea before I got there that night that I would be assigned to him. An idea in the sense that they were going to assign him to a male nurse, and he could have his choice who it would be. Actually, he could have his choice out of anyone that was on that night...and it was...me.
Honestly, the confidentiality on this case was case closed. No one knew who exactly who he was, except a select group of people. Partly because of the rotating door on the unit.
But looking back, him and another patient- were the highlight of my shifts. It worked out, and things were taken care of. Smother than clockwork.
What I am getting at is this.... the couple, the guy with the back infection. The other patient that touched me... the guy who was a pain in the ass to everyone else except me, him, he said to go have a good time on the cruise.....
And honestly......... I did.
It is what it is. Everything is what it is. You need to take the good, with the bad. You need to just accept to what life gives you, and realize that you are ALIVE, and that is worth the good fight. That you, you have this opportunity to make lemonade out of lemons, that you have the opportunity to dance on a back of a boat with 40 gay men, in a rain storm with your shirt off, with the wind blowing in your hair, to "Its raining men". You have the opportunity to travel the world with a toothbrush, toothpaste, and the survival clothing for 3 months in Europe. You have the opportunity to bring a smile to someones world, even if it just for a moment. You have that choice. And the choice is yours.
It really hit me today. When I was riding my bike to see David. They say you start at the begining, and if you loose your way, you need to go back to the begining. But what is the begining? Is it when you were born? Is it when you graduated high school? Is it when you get married? Is it birth? Is it..what? we all have those begin-ings. And if you can't find it, it is best to retrace your steps. Just walk backwards, and you will find the beginging.
For me, I thought it was when I went to europe, when my parents didn't want me to go. Then I thought more deeper than that.... I took another back. I thought it was Kara, and yet that is an overlapping, but doesn't really count.
No, the beginging for me, was that first trip to Ft. Lauderdale in 2001. That was the begining for me.....
Definately.
But the point of all of this, the point is simply this: that I can run with the big dogs. I can rise to the occassion and overcome any hurdle that is put in my path.
And for once I found that out.
And that, that is so fucking powerful.